from the lows to the highs

i just started smoking again. i try not to make it as a habit, but recently it just made my life easier. i hate it when people tell me 'oh your life is easy already, what's so hard about it?' truth is it is not... sometimes. every people in the world do have that time when they go oh-so-low and feel like there is nothing and no one that they could count on.

i just had my turn. if i look back, i have never felt like i had in the last - maybe - few weeks. i just got so depressed that i turn to cigarettes as comfort. i feel like everyone is avoiding me, including my best friends... when the truth is they are not. they are always there for you, whenever you need them.

here is one thing you should know about life: know the people who really do care about you. they would console you whenever you feel down. they would know that you might need some air to breathe. they would stick by you, through thick and thin. they would accept you as who you are, but still managed to give you constructive criticisms to improve yourself for your own good.

i have these people in my life, and i love them... more than i love my 234. LOL.