a comeback

i am back. maybe this is for forever. i have to write something otherwise i would go crazy. a lot of things have happened since the last time i wrote my entry. lots of general things, i suppose.

1. i gained my weight

2. i fell in love

3. i got heartbroken

4. i passed my 3rd semester in university

5. i fell in love

6. i got heartbroken (again)

7. i went on holiday for new year's eve

8. i got drunk on new year's eve

9. my brother saw me drunk on new year's eve

10. my parents thought i was tired but they didn't know i was drunk

11. i went to brisbane

12. met a crazy landlady

13. began my 4th and last semester in this country

14. I LOST WEIGHT. hooshaaaa! :D

okay i guess that sums it all.

In the Dead of the Night

Candles in the night
The moon shines bright in the sky
Dimming every corner of the room
A hint of darkness revealed

I caught him across the room
Looking at me with those eyes
Then the night starts to fall
Showering us in the darkness

That warm bed i felt
And that kiss i swear
Like an electric current
Filling up inside my being

I stared out the window
Wishing that the night could never die
Those seamless shadows i fear
Haunting me in the dead of the night

Nothing frightens me
Not when he's here...

And those 3 words you whispered
As you gazed into my eyes
Caressing me lightly on my bare skin
Electrifying me as i laid there in vain

Then i suddenly realized...
As i woke up on an empty bed..

some little things you experience when you live my life...

I could never RUN and HIDE like the way I USED TO BE... I have to LOOK for things I don't want to LOOK... I have to SEARCH for things I don't want to SEARCH... I have to TRY and LOVE someone else like the way I LOVE HIM... I's not FUN... But it's the way things HAS to BE... Everyone says MOVE ON whether it's HARD or NOT... How could I? Why should I? What if I don't want to LOVE anyone else? Yet the only thing I could do right now is be ALONE because that's what I would do when I feel confused... I am CONFUSED... Should I be DOING something that I SHOULDN'T be doing? Yes I SHOULD... and I am NOT going to let anyone else INTO IT...

10 sweetest things...

1. feeling the taste of strawberry flavored sweet candy in your mouth.

2. the taste of sweetened peppermint tea.

3. the taste of chocolate.

4. a compliment from someone.

5. receiving flowers/gifts for no reason at all.

6. the smell of Gucci Envy Me.

7. watching the stars with a guy/girl that you like.

8. getting your first laugh when somebody cheats you off.

9. a kiss in the rain.

10. the taste of your tears when you cry.


those are what i thought about... whenever i am bitter...