Bottom line...

If ever Heaven has an amazing broadband connection, I know you would be looking at my postings right now, and everything else I have been doing ever since you were gone. I wish I could see you right now. You know, I still regret not saying all the things that I really want to say to you. I still think about you, you know. But if you were right here right now, I know you would be saying, "Hey stop this right now. Regretting is not going to help." Well, you're right. Regretting is not going to help with anything.

I still remember your jokes and every little bit of advice that you have given me though. I think you changed me in a way. I remember that you said, "There is no grey in life, there is only black and white." I remember how you taught me that I shouldn't take life for granted, be positive in every thing that I do and that I always have to look around me. You taught me a lot of things. You brought me closer to everyone. You taught me how to grow up slowly, bit by bit. You told me that I don't have to be shy around you... even though it still happened sometimes (haha). I love how you could always make me forget about everything bad in this world.

Reality is harsh, right? Losing you is harsher. I still cry, now and then, when I think of you. Done some things I'm not proud of and I know you wouldn't be proud of me too. You have always been a huge part of my life, and I hope that even though I never said it, you would always know. I realise that life is too short to be taken for granted. Everything that I have ever experienced is nothing to what is out there. I am sad that you wouldn't be physically there for me when I need you. But I know that you're always there, watching me. Watching all of us.

To everyone reading this, if ever you are with someone, or you know someone, and you love them, just say it. Cherish all the ones you love, and tell them that you love them, before it's too late.

There are just too much that I want to say to you. I promise that I will visit you. I look forward to seeing you again in the future.

For now, sleep tight, my love. I miss you. Bottom line... I love you.

Some pondering...

Some people ask me why I want to preserve the orang-utans in my country. I keep on pondering of what to say. I have three perspectives; religious, scientific and personal. I know it doesn't go together but why not hear me first?

Religious: I personally think that God created these creatures for us to take care of and for us to ensure of its survival. If people think that these creatures are worthless, so to speak from a religious point-of-view, I think it is the same as defying God. God gave us these wonderful creatures. Why not take care of them and make God happy?

Scientific: Pure logic. Simple and clear. Orang-utans need forests to live. It's their habitat. If we take care of our orang-utans, we keep our rainforests the way they are. Bottom line? Orang-utans go extinct, no rainforests. No rainforests, more pollution. More pollution, more carbon emissions. All carbon emissions, end of the human race. We die. Simple, isn't it? :)

Personal: Come on, now. Baby orang-utans are just super cute.

On a side note, let's not forget about that film 'Planet of the Apes'. I think it has gotten to me. Quite scary, hey?

By the way, these just doesn't go only for the orang-utans. I dedicate this to all animals living in my country and the entire world. I have attended too many lectures of Evolutionary Approaches to Psychology to actually find out how remarkable these creatures are.

So, if you ask me, what is my next step? Well... I can't tell you. It has to be spontaneous. You will know when I finally did it. I will write. For now, I think you know what I'm going to do. ;)

To all those corporations who think that they own the Earth, remember... Mother Nature can be very angry if she wants to :) To a certain political institution of my beloved country centred at where I am right now, the fact that illegal loggings, deforestations and forest fires did not happen because of palm oil is PURE BULLSHIT. All right, maybe real estates play a part in this too. But you do know that palm oil plays a part in this also :) And you wrote this and denied the cold-hard facts in your website? Tsk tsk for shame...

Enough with the post. I'm done. I'm out.